The Confession I've Never Said Out Loud

The group chat lights up again, everyone trading stories about their weekends, their situationships, their “you had to be there” moments. I scroll through it with my coffee going cold on the desk beside me and say nothing.

I’m not a teenager. That’s the part that sits heavy. I’ve had chances, maybe, or things that looked like chances from a distance. A girl at a work event who laughed at everything I said. A guy at a friend’s party who kept finding reasons to stand near me. Each time something in me pulled back before it could become anything, and I watched the moment close like a door.

I’ve never kissed anyone. Never been kissed. The arithmetic of that feels strange to even type, like a secret that’s been quietly compounding interest for years.

What I carry isn’t shame exactly, it’s more like a private gap between who I am on the outside and what my actual history holds. People assume. I let them. It’s easier than explaining that I exist somewhere outside the common timeline everyone else seems to be on.

Some nights it feels like something I’ll laugh about eventually. Other nights the coffee goes cold and the chat keeps scrolling and I just sit with it.

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